I used to have a really good, reliable memory. I could recall dates and names, remember tiny, insignificant details like what I wore or what I ate somewhere, even if the occasion in question was years and years ago.
I used to be able to do more than one thing at a time without losing my train of thought or getting distracted by something else.
Now, since having Ethan, my brain has turned to mush - at least, that's how it feels sometimes.
It may just be the lack of sleep / broken sleep or juggling being a mum and being a professional, and on the rare occasion, being me, but I do find myself struggling sometimes.
I might be talking and I just lose direction half way through and can't think of the point I was going to make. Sometimes words just fail me altogether; I know what I want to say but I can't think of the word or string a sentence together to say what I mean.
It's nothing major but it's quite unsettling and I don't know how to make things better. I've always been an organised person and my stationary addiction means that I have diaries, planners, to do lists and post it notes so if I have a thought or need to remember something, I can jot it down. It's just sometimes I can't tell which way is up, which day something happened on, who I spoke to about what and when.
It's just too much for my mama brain to cope with.
Being a mum means you have to multitask, juggling household chores with work whilst meeting the needs and demands of your child. When I do have some me time, I'm too frazzled to do very much at all. I dip in and out of Twitter and Facebook every few minutes, I blog, I watch old TV programmes because my attention span is so short that I need something easy to follow that doesn't require much brain power. I've had to watch a few episodes of the new series of Modern Family and How I Met Your Mother again as I couldn't remember what had happened, even though I'd only seen it the day before.
I'd like to read again. I've always loved books, reading a book a night when I was in my teens, but I can't remember the last book I read. I tried to read And The Mountains Echoed by the author of The Kite Runner, but I just couldn't follow the story as I would pick up the book and forget everything I'd read before.
Time is a precious thing as a mum and it's important to make time for yourself and your other half too - remember, you were a couple once! There's just too many things to remember and do when your little one gives you spare time, not least of which is sleep, so I guess it's no wonder our brains turn a bit mushy after a while.
Do you feel this way? How do you try to make time for yourself? Have you got any memory boosting tips or techniques?!